Monday, July 26, 2010

Potential new cellphones and self-improvement

I haven't posted in a while, but I think i'm going to continue to update this. (particularly since my LJ is almost dead). I'm a bit busy because I've been taking 23 (!) credits this term, but it is my final term! I was thinking about grad school, but honestly I'm feeling so guilty about the money that I've spent on schooling already. Despite my debt, I actually hate owing people things. Also I'm tired of being poor.

I took a vacation of all things social this week just because I feel like my life has been hurtling out of my own control....everything that could possibly go wrong has gone wrong all at once. At the same time I am incredibly grateful towards all the things that have gone RIGHT, and I feel like I've just been focusing on the 'wrong'. So the vacation was to get my life in order. I have a habit of making plans and then making 3 or 4 backup plans in case those plans don't pan out. I personally think that this is a good habit to have, so I'm never stuck up a creek (but for some reason I end up stuck up a creek anyway!). I'm just scared of graduating and not getting a good job. I don't even want a "good job" I want the right job. The job that will just give me money so that I can continue on to my dreams. When I am surrounded by successful people it feels like a double edged knife, on one hand I'm motivated to do better, on the other hand seeing everyone ELSE succeed just makes my past and present failures seem that much starker in comparison.

In other news, I'm going to buy a new cellphone to replace the one that was stolen from me. Since sprint doesn't really have any good phones, I chose the Samsung Intercept in pink.

Kind of hesitant to trust samsung again with the touchscreen (My current samsung touchscreen YP-P3 mp3 player's touchscreen is on the fritz), but its not like I have that much selection with sprint. >.< I hate touchscreen keyboards! And it seems that is where the whole smartphone thing is going...