Saturday, November 27, 2010

Black Friday

Black friday! I actually didn't purchase anything because I'm currently unemployed. Its been pretty hard, but I'm keeping up with studying to take my GRE's again and applying to different places. I moved back to NYC recently and it felt like moving backwards. To feel better, I went to Tokyo Rebel with Carla. No outfit shots but there was some really cool shots of graffiti! 
Lol, bad pussies. I didn't get anything at Tokyo Rebel, ;__; everything was so expensive. I did end up buying a pair of socks at Betsey Johnson which I love because now they allow me to match my BtSSB kinari skirt with black. Afterwards we went to go see Harry potter and had to deal with annoying people in the theatre but the movie was still good. 

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I can do it...i think.

Hey blog, long time no see. I graduated some time ago and I've been sort of wondering how my future is going to be. It feels like the world is at my feet so to speak, and yet I'm blocked from most of it by my own past mistakes. It's also hard to be in a relationship and with friends who seem so far ahead of me. I know I get easily discouraged, even before I try, so I'm trying to cheer myself up with the philosophy: "Well you haven't failed yet have you?"
So things I need to do 
1. retake GRE
2. fix up my resume
3. Ask for a recommendation from teachers!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Skin/hair care regimen

Ok so I've been trying to keep it as natural as possible lately, and not out of any urge to go organic, but mostly because I am superpoor, and products cost money. So here's my guide to skin/haircare on a budget.


I use the OCM method, which is short for oil-cleansing method. Basically, a mix of castor and olive oils, with a few drops of tea tree oil. I rub this over my face at night, then steam off with a clean washrag in hot water. I usually don't have to add any moisturizer at night, but if my face is feeling a little dry, I add a drop of coconut oil to my face.If I need to exfoliate, I do the same thing, I just add sugar to the mix. Once a week, I use a mixture of Bentonite clay, honey, olive oil and water to make a mask that I apply for about 30 minutes and then wipe off and steam. Whats cool is that the oil takes off any makeup (even waterproof), and I am usually left with clean skin :) So far it is working pretty well, my skin looks very glow-y, although my pores are still larger than I want them to be. I don't want to use astringent, mostly because I have naturally dry skin and it always gives me dry spots, even the alcohol-free ones.

I use a mixture of honey, tea tree oil and water in a little spray bottle and spritz my hair throughout the day. Honey is a humectant, and it is VERY humid right now in Philadelphia, so it is actually quite moisturizing (and not as sticky as you might think). I usually moisturize with my sheabutter/coconut oil/aloe vera gel mix and then seal with castor oil or olive oil. My hair is kinky so it does not get oily, I only have to shampoo once a week. (any more and my hair will get superdry). I condition with Aubrey Organics HoneySuckle Rose conditioner (best thing EVER), and also sometimes use Bentonite clay to shampoo.

All in all, I think I use commercial product in that whole mix. I would like to use some more storebought products (like oyin handmade) but I don't really have it in my budget to spend on a bottle that is only 8oz. Usually when one of the things I use run out, it is expensive to replace, but it lasts me for ages. An $8 container of coconut oil lasts me for almost a YEAR, and a halfpound of shea butter almost 6 months. The honey I use is not organic. Its probably better to get something organic but honestly, organic honey is the most expensive thing ever, so forget about that.

Thats it! As the summer passes, I'll stop using humectants and probably straighten more (and also start using more heavy duty facial moisturizers to prevent dry spots) but this is the extent of everything I do right now.

Potential new cellphones and self-improvement

I haven't posted in a while, but I think i'm going to continue to update this. (particularly since my LJ is almost dead). I'm a bit busy because I've been taking 23 (!) credits this term, but it is my final term! I was thinking about grad school, but honestly I'm feeling so guilty about the money that I've spent on schooling already. Despite my debt, I actually hate owing people things. Also I'm tired of being poor.

I took a vacation of all things social this week just because I feel like my life has been hurtling out of my own control....everything that could possibly go wrong has gone wrong all at once. At the same time I am incredibly grateful towards all the things that have gone RIGHT, and I feel like I've just been focusing on the 'wrong'. So the vacation was to get my life in order. I have a habit of making plans and then making 3 or 4 backup plans in case those plans don't pan out. I personally think that this is a good habit to have, so I'm never stuck up a creek (but for some reason I end up stuck up a creek anyway!). I'm just scared of graduating and not getting a good job. I don't even want a "good job" I want the right job. The job that will just give me money so that I can continue on to my dreams. When I am surrounded by successful people it feels like a double edged knife, on one hand I'm motivated to do better, on the other hand seeing everyone ELSE succeed just makes my past and present failures seem that much starker in comparison.

In other news, I'm going to buy a new cellphone to replace the one that was stolen from me. Since sprint doesn't really have any good phones, I chose the Samsung Intercept in pink.

Kind of hesitant to trust samsung again with the touchscreen (My current samsung touchscreen YP-P3 mp3 player's touchscreen is on the fritz), but its not like I have that much selection with sprint. >.< I hate touchscreen keyboards! And it seems that is where the whole smartphone thing is going...

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Helicopters and cigarettes

I haven't had a cigarette in months, and I recently found a pack of unopened Malboro's in my Swimmer handbag. Due to being the reciever of some (what I would call) bad news, I decided to indulge, seeing that my roommate had left for New York for the weekend.
Ugh. I regret it immediately. Now I feel rather sick, since I haven't been used to cigarettes in a while. In any case it did what it needed to do, or rather, what I needed it to do, which was to help me think clearly. Sometimes emotion gets the best of me right when I need to be all calculating about it. I've come down to these 3 reasons of why I've been slipping into depression recently:

1. I seriously need to get laid
2. Perhaps having the majority of my friends in NYC is not a good idea
3. See number 1.

I probably should have figured this all out without the crutch, but I am very good at self-delusion. In any case, I went to the American Helicopter museum this weekend and it was pretty fun. I still get rather self-conscious in front of others but it didn't really bother me until afterward
(like it usually does). I have a bit of a complex about socializing.

The V-22 Osprey, one of the coolest helicopter/airplanes around. I'm glad I got to actually see one up close and not just in video. This one in particular was not used by the military, it was a prototype made of a different composite, but it was still awesome

Sunday, February 14, 2010


I feel like absolute shit today so i stayed inside with my second love

Happy Valentine's day

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Years~

A bit late, but wishing everyone on the internet a happy new year :)

My resolutions?
-Remember this: "Nothing ventured, nothing gained"
-Read less (yeah I read a lot, to the point where distracts from schoolwork)
-Graduate! (in the spring :D)
-Get in better shape
-Not wear jeans anymore. They've made me so lazy in how I look! I only have a twice a week jeans pass now. (I have to start slowly for the lazy mornings, lol) And I have all these loli skirts and I never wear them :C

These are pretty plain goals I guess, but they only apply to me, so that's that.

Oh, I installed dread falls! I'm sick of them already, lol.
I'll show you my gifts in the morning, they're cute.